If I believed in the almighty I'd be asking myself if I'm making a HUGE mistake with starting this business malarkey or whether I should just stop now. It seems that every time I take a step forward something goes wrong and it's another step to get forward again. It was the scripts and I sorted that, slowly, very slowly but actually the scripts that I'm writing myself I like better than the ones I bought so that's OK. Then at the weekend my laptop died, literally died and took all my work with it, well took half of my work so here we go again aarrrgggghhhhhh and still counting on launching the website on 1st November but really is someone trying to tell me something???
It must be a moon rising or something with the weather because yesterday I cried in the street. I listened to 3 different conversations about money yesterday and they literally went from one mad extreme to one sad extreme and that's where I cried. On the bus to school there was a young Mum, she had her one year old(ish) in a childs buggy and got chatting to another young Mum about buggys, the younger of the two pointed out her buggy and said she's picked it up for £10 and it's the third one she's had, they break because she has to carry them up 12 flights of stairs to her flat, she was clean and tidy and so was her baby, she was so caring to her little one that it was a joy to watch her. Money is clearly tight for her but she seems to be doing a great job. Then at primary school in a pretty affluent area two Mums were chatting about holidays when one said that due to rising flight prices they won't be doing a Caribbean holiday next year, they'll be staying in Europe. Then at home I popped to the shop to see another homeless young guy sitting in the street, I overheard him saying to someone that he was hungry so as I picked up what I wanted I also picked up a sandwich from the reduced price shelf for him. When I went outside to give it to him he has been asked to move by the shop manager, I don't blame him, no business owner want a homeless person sitting possibly begging outside their front door. I gave the young guy the sandwich and was shocked to see him so clean looking and he had tears in his eyes while he asked me where he should go. He didn't want to go to a local church because the others there didn't accept him in either of their two groups, one a group of Eastern Europeans and the others a group of drugs and drinkers and he said he didn't fit into either of those groups. Having listened to the three different conversations was a real eye opener that the cost of living is so very different from different groups of society, some peoples lack of funds mean they have to change their holiday destinations, and others mind they have no food or shelter. It brought me to tears in the street. How as a society do we change this. What as a country can we do, we have so many people sleeping in the street, I've noticed the number growing so much recently yet buildings are going up and laying empty, is that right? Surely there is a heart beating in our government that knows something has to change? The flip side of this which prays on my mind a LOT is the welfare system, I now my thoughts on this are controversial when I say that we need to shake up the benefits system by getting those who are fit to work away from Netflix and working in the community, our streets need cleaning, old people and the disabled need help and we have thousands of people sitting in their front rooms watching TV and living off benefits. Other European countries don't have our welfares and if you don't work and pay into the system there is no money for you to claim out of it. Surely these people on welfare should be out doing something in the community to earn the welfare money that the state pays them? I may be wrong but I have had this conversation so many times and so many people agree with me. Things need to change.
My other thoughts this last few weeks have been is about the plastic and littler that we are drowning the world with, so heres the thing. We have islands of rubbish and plastic destroying our seas, we have areas all over the world that have mountains of rubbish and plastic that has nowhere to go so it's just building and building. Then we are having storms, volcanoes and severe weather changes and thousands of people are dying every week. The world is fighting back the race that is causing it damage.
Woah I'm deep and meaningful this week, it must be the moon or the weather
Tuesday, 16 October 2018
Wednesday, 5 September 2018
Onwards and upwards
It's been ages again, sorry but things have been sooooooo busy. I went on holiday to London to visit a friend and thought after a week of doing the brilliant tourist things, visiting the Palace, Liz was out so she didn't make me a cuppa. Doing the boat trips, theatre, Kew gardens, I know that's an old lady thing but it was so beautiful and I've wanted to go there since I was a child. I thought I'd end my visit with my special dance and a visit to the local hospital. Now I have to say that the hospital on the 'not posh' outside areas of London are very very different to the usually lovely hospital that I regularly visit here in delightful Devon. Here we often see one person handcuffed to a uniformed police officer, there it was 4 and one very very angry woman with worse language than mine stomping up and down the place like a fairy elephant. I woke up in the ambulance with a sore neck, a terrible headache (standard) and a really frightened friend. Also pissed off that it had happened again. I can try to put it down to a number of things, maybe I'd overdone it doing London in a day, maybe having a g&t or a glass of wine every evening was a bit too much, or maybe trying to change my CBD to a cheaper brand. The fact is I will never know, just another lesson to be careful again :(
On a lighter note my website is amazing. I love the work going into it and the way it looks and I love that very soon I will be a member of working society again in the not too distant future. It feels great to be gently getting back to real life. I thought over the weekend that it would be a great idea to do a selection of facebook posts to offer some free hypnosis recordings, get some feedback and start a customer base, oops I woke up to 30 requests for help. Now the good thing on this is that I now know there is a potential to my business and I'm not just throwing my money away. It's also been a kick up the s=arse to get the recordings done, so I am getting working on them every day now and not just thinking about it. The biggest things I've been asked for are, weight loss, depression, fibromyalga and stopping smoking. Sad times really that fibromyalga and depression or sadness are so prevalent in our society, a wonderful thing that I just might be able to help even a few people to get over these issues without the use of chemical meds, that is exciting to me.
I'm going to end this weeks post with a great compliment about my blog and that is that it's a fun read because I don't have a filter and I don't intend to have one. I want readers to know what it feels like to have a crap day and shout about it. I want people to know that it's OK to shout and scream about having a crap day and about having a great one. And I want my readers to know that even when this blog goes onto my business page I have no intention of fluffing it up with sweetness and light. The thoughts that go on this page are my personal thoughts and this is a place where I don't have to be police, I save that for outside where other people are because really I am a polite and nice person, but my brain isn't always. Ooohhhhh that said I did want to ask the new mother of a very very, so new it's still pink baby is KFC really the nicest place to take this precious little bundle to in it's first days of life?
Ciao for now readers and have a great day :)
Thursday, 26 July 2018
How the weeks are flying by so damn fast?
I'm just shocked at how it's been about 4 weeks since I last posted. The last 4 weeks have been literally mental (hahaha that's appropriate). I don't really know where to start with an update!!!
I house sat and dog sat for some friends which was fabulous because I also started working, the house, work and dogs was brilliant, the being woken up at 5am every morning wasn't I was knackered but there always has to be a little bit of a downfall eh. I loved being back to some work, it makes me feel like I'm almost normal again.
It's been confirmed that I have CFS/ME and have probably had it for 40 years or so, always moaning about being tired, always wanting a bit of a snooze. So this is it, I really do have to cut out the sugar and the processed food, sugar is my enemy, but it's hard I love a bar of chocolate at night on the sofa in front of the TV, I will seek help from Davina and Ella (as in deliciously Ella) to find/make a sugar free alternative. I remember complaining about being tired as a child and had to take iron tablets, then when I was expecting my first child and had to have iron injections in my bum every day. Then when I had just had my second child, I was shouted at by the Dr who said "you're always moaning that you're tired", I don't like being shouted at so never went back. Then 5 years ago when I had a meltdown in work they told me I had CFS/ME, I was in Spain and knew I needed to sort my diet out but didn't bother for whatever reason. Now it's time to take control and pull myself together, I can do this, just need a kick up the bum and a reason. I've got the reason.
Then I moved home, I literally love my new flat although I have no idea how I managed to fit so much stuff into a smaller home because I can't unpack everything here. How does one woman really need more than 2 boxes of bags, scarves and shoes??? I do not know and I thought I was careful about material stuff, massive wrong!!!
I finished my walk completing over 200 miles walked and raising more than £800 which I am thrilled about. I want to do more stuff though. I want to raise more awareness of the illness, awareness of how to find a cure and awareness of how many people are effected by it. I want to be part of the group of people who work tirelessly to do all of that.
I went on holiday with my girls, we stayed in a cavehouse in Santorini, it was incredible. We spent the anniversary of my 10 hour surgery sipping wine on the terrace of a stunning restaurant. I wanted to make a different memory rather than spending every day of that year thinking about the day my life was saved by a disc being cut out of my skull and a tumour the size of a small orange being removed from my head. A new memory has been created. I think I should do this every year from now on, to give us all a different way to think on that one day.
I'm home and trying to sort myself out into my new life. My website is almost ready to be a business. I've got a million plans for things to do (well maybe not quite a million but a few) I want the website to be up and running, I want to start two evenings a week teaching meditation classes with mindfulness. I want to get my sewing machine back out and make some designs that I've had for ages. With this in mind (get it mindfulness and mind?) rent a small room to store my designs for sale and my small meditation classes, I even think I might have a room a few doors away, we'll see, that's all a long way away but it's something to look forward to.
With all the business going on I've been trying to learn and practice mindfulness with the help of Ruby Wax's book and an app called headspace, they are both brilliant. Some days I fail miserably and others I just start off calm and continue that way. It's certainly my aim to stop letting things make me upset, angry or just plain miserable. My aim is to be calm and relaxed every day. There are days when I fill myself up with so much stuff I feel like I don't have time to be calm, these are the days when I really need it the most, just that 10 minutes a day in the words of the brilliant Andy Puddicombe.
First I have to start at the beginning and sort my diet out and get rid of the sugar. Also get beack to doing my fitness, not done any for AGES so get my arse back in gear before it becomes my enlarging arse again hehehe
On that note I am going to make a cuppa and get in my PJ's before watching some trashy TV
As always I wish you all well and hope that in the next few weeks I'll be telling you I have my new sparkly business up and running and will be a working hypnotherapist and meditation teacher
Be well and happy
I house sat and dog sat for some friends which was fabulous because I also started working, the house, work and dogs was brilliant, the being woken up at 5am every morning wasn't I was knackered but there always has to be a little bit of a downfall eh. I loved being back to some work, it makes me feel like I'm almost normal again.
It's been confirmed that I have CFS/ME and have probably had it for 40 years or so, always moaning about being tired, always wanting a bit of a snooze. So this is it, I really do have to cut out the sugar and the processed food, sugar is my enemy, but it's hard I love a bar of chocolate at night on the sofa in front of the TV, I will seek help from Davina and Ella (as in deliciously Ella) to find/make a sugar free alternative. I remember complaining about being tired as a child and had to take iron tablets, then when I was expecting my first child and had to have iron injections in my bum every day. Then when I had just had my second child, I was shouted at by the Dr who said "you're always moaning that you're tired", I don't like being shouted at so never went back. Then 5 years ago when I had a meltdown in work they told me I had CFS/ME, I was in Spain and knew I needed to sort my diet out but didn't bother for whatever reason. Now it's time to take control and pull myself together, I can do this, just need a kick up the bum and a reason. I've got the reason.
Then I moved home, I literally love my new flat although I have no idea how I managed to fit so much stuff into a smaller home because I can't unpack everything here. How does one woman really need more than 2 boxes of bags, scarves and shoes??? I do not know and I thought I was careful about material stuff, massive wrong!!!
I finished my walk completing over 200 miles walked and raising more than £800 which I am thrilled about. I want to do more stuff though. I want to raise more awareness of the illness, awareness of how to find a cure and awareness of how many people are effected by it. I want to be part of the group of people who work tirelessly to do all of that.
I went on holiday with my girls, we stayed in a cavehouse in Santorini, it was incredible. We spent the anniversary of my 10 hour surgery sipping wine on the terrace of a stunning restaurant. I wanted to make a different memory rather than spending every day of that year thinking about the day my life was saved by a disc being cut out of my skull and a tumour the size of a small orange being removed from my head. A new memory has been created. I think I should do this every year from now on, to give us all a different way to think on that one day.
I'm home and trying to sort myself out into my new life. My website is almost ready to be a business. I've got a million plans for things to do (well maybe not quite a million but a few) I want the website to be up and running, I want to start two evenings a week teaching meditation classes with mindfulness. I want to get my sewing machine back out and make some designs that I've had for ages. With this in mind (get it mindfulness and mind?) rent a small room to store my designs for sale and my small meditation classes, I even think I might have a room a few doors away, we'll see, that's all a long way away but it's something to look forward to.
With all the business going on I've been trying to learn and practice mindfulness with the help of Ruby Wax's book and an app called headspace, they are both brilliant. Some days I fail miserably and others I just start off calm and continue that way. It's certainly my aim to stop letting things make me upset, angry or just plain miserable. My aim is to be calm and relaxed every day. There are days when I fill myself up with so much stuff I feel like I don't have time to be calm, these are the days when I really need it the most, just that 10 minutes a day in the words of the brilliant Andy Puddicombe.
First I have to start at the beginning and sort my diet out and get rid of the sugar. Also get beack to doing my fitness, not done any for AGES so get my arse back in gear before it becomes my enlarging arse again hehehe
On that note I am going to make a cuppa and get in my PJ's before watching some trashy TV
As always I wish you all well and hope that in the next few weeks I'll be telling you I have my new sparkly business up and running and will be a working hypnotherapist and meditation teacher
Be well and happy
Tuesday, 26 June 2018
How up and down is it acceptable have in two weeks?
Really this last two or three weeks have been ridiculous. I've had a double ear infection which didn't want to go away after the first bout of antibiotics so had to have a second week of them. I knew it was time to get to the Dr when a petit mal started making the TV go odd again, I now know that when I think I've seen or heard that before, the deja vu is starting and I need to sit down. I also know that my little dog knows it too because she taps my leg until I sit down and then she stays by my side, bless her. So resting took place and the antibiotics. My Dr told me that anyone in my position will have more potential of getting a seizure with any form of infection, so I need to get to the doc as soon as I know I'm not quite right.
Like I say the first lot didn't get rid of it so I had to have another lot, I knew that I wasn't right when I had a full gran mal and ended up back in hospital for the night again. Obviously as usual I don't remember the 'special dance' that I reserve for my daughters. This time though I woke up with a cracking bruise on my hip, a swollen ankle and a really really sore throat, ear and tongue from where I must have thought it was a good idea to bite myself! Now whether this was from missing a CBD dose or the gin and tonic (the neurologist says that would have been fine) or stress over money worries that have all come at once, or whatever other reason I can think of. The upside of this seizure though is another MRI, which I don't get scared about anymore and it shows no change which is great.
I am still walking and raining money and hopefully awareness for brain tumour research. I am astounded at the amount of messages I've had from strangers, of the people who have stopped me in the street to tell me their stories or put some money in the pot. I am determined to get this known to the masses in the same way as breast cancer and prostate cancer is. So I'm keeping walking.
I'm also moving up, out and on. To a new flat in a beautiful seafront tourist area near to where my new workplace is going to be and looking over one of my favourite garden spots in the world. My website for my new business is also being built right now and soon it will be up and running and I will be a real businesswoman. It's super exciting and super scary but with so much to look forward to I really need to be calm in my head and not let excitement take me over, which I know I have a massive potential to do.
The CBD and medical cannabis news in the UK has gone bananas with Charlotte Caldwell and the story of her little boy, it seems that things really are going forward with the whole thing and maybe it will be available on the NHS very soon. I had a conversation with my new neurologist this week who was confused as to why I don't like taking the chemical medications that are tried and tested by big pharma and approved by them but that I am happy to take the CBD oil that is produced naturally in the UK, tested and approved all over the world and although (what I'm taking) is legal and is making a great difference in how I feel. I got to the point of not furthering the conversation with him but he knows that I'm taking it and have no intention of stopping.
My cutting out sugar has failed miserably this last few weeks, once I am in my new place and back to a more normal time I'll read that book properly and get onto a sugar free life, brain and body.
So many ups and downs with the charity, the fundraising, the job, the business and the home move. Then there's the seizures, the being told to start living and stop wrapping myself up in cotton wool and the seizures. I forget how terrifying it is to totally lose control of myself and have no memory of it happening. I have to find a way to get over that. 20 weeks though, it's the longest I've gone without a seizure by 6 weeks. So fingers crossed that the next one is much much further away. The electric flashes in my head have my full permission to slow down now.
And on that note it's time for a cup of camomile tea and bed time.
Have a great week everyone, I'll aim to be more upbeat next week.
Ooh and just in case you want to please take a look at the justgiving page, add some money and share it around
https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/victoria-bradley5
Thanks
Like I say the first lot didn't get rid of it so I had to have another lot, I knew that I wasn't right when I had a full gran mal and ended up back in hospital for the night again. Obviously as usual I don't remember the 'special dance' that I reserve for my daughters. This time though I woke up with a cracking bruise on my hip, a swollen ankle and a really really sore throat, ear and tongue from where I must have thought it was a good idea to bite myself! Now whether this was from missing a CBD dose or the gin and tonic (the neurologist says that would have been fine) or stress over money worries that have all come at once, or whatever other reason I can think of. The upside of this seizure though is another MRI, which I don't get scared about anymore and it shows no change which is great.
I am still walking and raining money and hopefully awareness for brain tumour research. I am astounded at the amount of messages I've had from strangers, of the people who have stopped me in the street to tell me their stories or put some money in the pot. I am determined to get this known to the masses in the same way as breast cancer and prostate cancer is. So I'm keeping walking.
I'm also moving up, out and on. To a new flat in a beautiful seafront tourist area near to where my new workplace is going to be and looking over one of my favourite garden spots in the world. My website for my new business is also being built right now and soon it will be up and running and I will be a real businesswoman. It's super exciting and super scary but with so much to look forward to I really need to be calm in my head and not let excitement take me over, which I know I have a massive potential to do.
The CBD and medical cannabis news in the UK has gone bananas with Charlotte Caldwell and the story of her little boy, it seems that things really are going forward with the whole thing and maybe it will be available on the NHS very soon. I had a conversation with my new neurologist this week who was confused as to why I don't like taking the chemical medications that are tried and tested by big pharma and approved by them but that I am happy to take the CBD oil that is produced naturally in the UK, tested and approved all over the world and although (what I'm taking) is legal and is making a great difference in how I feel. I got to the point of not furthering the conversation with him but he knows that I'm taking it and have no intention of stopping.
My cutting out sugar has failed miserably this last few weeks, once I am in my new place and back to a more normal time I'll read that book properly and get onto a sugar free life, brain and body.
So many ups and downs with the charity, the fundraising, the job, the business and the home move. Then there's the seizures, the being told to start living and stop wrapping myself up in cotton wool and the seizures. I forget how terrifying it is to totally lose control of myself and have no memory of it happening. I have to find a way to get over that. 20 weeks though, it's the longest I've gone without a seizure by 6 weeks. So fingers crossed that the next one is much much further away. The electric flashes in my head have my full permission to slow down now.
And on that note it's time for a cup of camomile tea and bed time.
Have a great week everyone, I'll aim to be more upbeat next week.
Ooh and just in case you want to please take a look at the justgiving page, add some money and share it around
https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/victoria-bradley5
Thanks
Sunday, 3 June 2018
What has been horrible is becoming something amazing
As I'm writing this I have tears in my eyes, and a few rolling down my face. I have spent the day with my daughter helping her move into her beautiful new home with her fabulous boyfriend and her delightful boy. We've going through old photos and memories, books and toys of my grandsons. I think that exactly the time I am cooking dinner this time last year we were being told that I had a tumour living in my head, I didn't take it in, I couldn't take it in, my daughters cried, my friend cried and I was dumbfounded, not knowing what was going to happen and definately not taking in the enormity of 'brain tumour'.
Since that time, I have continued to scare the living daylights out of everyone close to me with seizures and surgery and more seizures. I have worked, read, studied, fought the agencies and cried, cried and then cried some more. I have made amazing friends from all over the world who are my backbone, I would never have met a lot of these people if it hadn't been for this awful 'thing'! I always knew that family isn't just blood (although mine are awesome) but they are also the people you choose to have by your side, they will stick by you through thick and thin, they will stick by through the good times and the bad, they will hold you when you cry and poke you when you need to laugh.
I have learned, and am still learning a new way of life, I have learned new skills that I have wanted for years and years. I am going to start a new version of myself, a different version me, maybe calmer and kinder, I like that version of myself.
I've learned that when you have a toxic person in your life they have to be removed, it's hard and there is a mourning period but it's worth it to take away that toxicity. I have also learned that some people will step away from you because they can't handle the fear, I cried over these but honestly if they can't handle me when I need them they don't deserve me when I'm at my best, so they have been removed too.
I am now shouting from the rooftops about brain tumour research, I am aiming to be an ambassador for this vital research for people all over the world. The world knows about breast cancer, prostate cancer, leukemia and these are also vital cancers that need to be irradicated but so is brain tumours. I want it known everywhere and by everyone that work needs to be done to stop these horrible and silent things living in our heads, the uninvited lodgers that so many of us give names to just to get to grips with the situation. I want to fight to see this research find a cure quicker.
I am in tears now, not tears of fear and sadness anymore but tears of joy, relief and gratitude. I can't even have a glass of wine though cos I'm on antibiotics. Not to worry, Thursday evening will be served with a very small glass of wine :)
I will continue the fight and will continue to raise money for the fight, if you are reading this and want to join me follow this link https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/victoria-bradley5
Since that time, I have continued to scare the living daylights out of everyone close to me with seizures and surgery and more seizures. I have worked, read, studied, fought the agencies and cried, cried and then cried some more. I have made amazing friends from all over the world who are my backbone, I would never have met a lot of these people if it hadn't been for this awful 'thing'! I always knew that family isn't just blood (although mine are awesome) but they are also the people you choose to have by your side, they will stick by you through thick and thin, they will stick by through the good times and the bad, they will hold you when you cry and poke you when you need to laugh.
I have learned, and am still learning a new way of life, I have learned new skills that I have wanted for years and years. I am going to start a new version of myself, a different version me, maybe calmer and kinder, I like that version of myself.
I've learned that when you have a toxic person in your life they have to be removed, it's hard and there is a mourning period but it's worth it to take away that toxicity. I have also learned that some people will step away from you because they can't handle the fear, I cried over these but honestly if they can't handle me when I need them they don't deserve me when I'm at my best, so they have been removed too.
I am now shouting from the rooftops about brain tumour research, I am aiming to be an ambassador for this vital research for people all over the world. The world knows about breast cancer, prostate cancer, leukemia and these are also vital cancers that need to be irradicated but so is brain tumours. I want it known everywhere and by everyone that work needs to be done to stop these horrible and silent things living in our heads, the uninvited lodgers that so many of us give names to just to get to grips with the situation. I want to fight to see this research find a cure quicker.
I am in tears now, not tears of fear and sadness anymore but tears of joy, relief and gratitude. I can't even have a glass of wine though cos I'm on antibiotics. Not to worry, Thursday evening will be served with a very small glass of wine :)
I will continue the fight and will continue to raise money for the fight, if you are reading this and want to join me follow this link https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/victoria-bradley5
Wednesday, 30 May 2018
Wow a busy time and then theres sugar!
It's been a majorly busy week with the children on school holidays, a wedding, preparing for work and my fresh start, a hen night, a wedding, an appointment to set up my website (woohoo expensive but exciting), and appointment with the brain tumour lady to charity fundraise and trying to do hypnosis recordings without the dog snoring in the background!
I am OK, taking time to rest and relax in between the growing list of things to do and so far I think I'm doing pretty good.
Lets start at the beginning, the wedding was amazing, I had the loveliest time, I didn't look ill, in fact I looked great in my beautiful dress and high heels and even a glass of prosecco, I caught the brides bouquet and I danced and laughed. All in all a wonderful wedding.
The website people are fabulous and are going to be able to get everything I want to start my healing business of to an incredible start. Like I said before exciting and expensive :)
The appointment with the lady from Brain Tumour research was incredible, so much so I cried after, I never used to cry it's annoying. I am going to start my walk this weekend, can't believe it's a year since all this started. She is going to support me and provide me with everything I need to promote the charity. I have a couple of t-shirts that I'll be wearing a lot to show who I am going to be supporting. I've been invited to visit the research lab and see what work is happening, I've been asked to be interviewed, I'm not sure about that yet and I will be introduced to various people. I've been described as an inspiration, I honestly don't know how true that is, I think more tenacious. I'm going to go putting my posters up in as many places as I can to get money given to the just giving page. I am now passionate about this charity.
And now I'm back on the subject of food, I got into a conversation with someone last week who told me that there is a proven link between tumours growing and sugar, as an ice cream fan this breaks my heart, unless my amazing ice cream man can make me a sugar free ice cream. So I'm back to the reading to see if and what the link is and should I really consider cutting sugar out of my diet. The first thing I read was sugar awakens cancer cells, so far that makes me miserable. I'll be honest there is a LOT to read on the link of sugar to cancer and tumours and it's ALL bad. So I am genuinely thinking of cutting out my sugar intake, which is a lot more limited than it used to be thanks to slimming world, but as many ladies I do get 'times' that I literally crave sugar and nothing else can fill the gap. I know that the chocolate and sugar is just not good for me but the thought it could be a contributing factor to my uninvited head guest growing back into his bungalow is terrifying. So Davina McCall is coming to my rescue again with her 5 weeks to sugar free. The thing that I know I will struggle with most is how to replace the sweet stuff, I understand that like any other addiction it'll take a couple of weeks to get the sugar out of my system and then I won't get the cravings. So once the alpen lights have gone they won't be replaced. I think tomorrow morning I will be doing a sugar addiction recording and putting myself on a 4 week course of it. I love that I can do this for myself and feel good for it. I am looking forward to seeing a brighter skin and as always I am looking at increasing energy levels, I'm always looking at increasing my energy levels and now that almost everything else is either taken out or put in, the only thing left to change is sugar, so that's it I will speak to the ice cream man and have him find me a sugar free ice cream that I will LOVE
Davina has done a few interviews on her sugar free diet, I still love her even though she didn't reply to my message ages ago. Here is one of her interviews http://www.dailymail.co.uk/home/you/article-2892387/Food-exclusive-Davina-s-5-Weeks-Sugar-Free.html
I am OK, taking time to rest and relax in between the growing list of things to do and so far I think I'm doing pretty good.
Lets start at the beginning, the wedding was amazing, I had the loveliest time, I didn't look ill, in fact I looked great in my beautiful dress and high heels and even a glass of prosecco, I caught the brides bouquet and I danced and laughed. All in all a wonderful wedding.
The website people are fabulous and are going to be able to get everything I want to start my healing business of to an incredible start. Like I said before exciting and expensive :)
The appointment with the lady from Brain Tumour research was incredible, so much so I cried after, I never used to cry it's annoying. I am going to start my walk this weekend, can't believe it's a year since all this started. She is going to support me and provide me with everything I need to promote the charity. I have a couple of t-shirts that I'll be wearing a lot to show who I am going to be supporting. I've been invited to visit the research lab and see what work is happening, I've been asked to be interviewed, I'm not sure about that yet and I will be introduced to various people. I've been described as an inspiration, I honestly don't know how true that is, I think more tenacious. I'm going to go putting my posters up in as many places as I can to get money given to the just giving page. I am now passionate about this charity.
And now I'm back on the subject of food, I got into a conversation with someone last week who told me that there is a proven link between tumours growing and sugar, as an ice cream fan this breaks my heart, unless my amazing ice cream man can make me a sugar free ice cream. So I'm back to the reading to see if and what the link is and should I really consider cutting sugar out of my diet. The first thing I read was sugar awakens cancer cells, so far that makes me miserable. I'll be honest there is a LOT to read on the link of sugar to cancer and tumours and it's ALL bad. So I am genuinely thinking of cutting out my sugar intake, which is a lot more limited than it used to be thanks to slimming world, but as many ladies I do get 'times' that I literally crave sugar and nothing else can fill the gap. I know that the chocolate and sugar is just not good for me but the thought it could be a contributing factor to my uninvited head guest growing back into his bungalow is terrifying. So Davina McCall is coming to my rescue again with her 5 weeks to sugar free. The thing that I know I will struggle with most is how to replace the sweet stuff, I understand that like any other addiction it'll take a couple of weeks to get the sugar out of my system and then I won't get the cravings. So once the alpen lights have gone they won't be replaced. I think tomorrow morning I will be doing a sugar addiction recording and putting myself on a 4 week course of it. I love that I can do this for myself and feel good for it. I am looking forward to seeing a brighter skin and as always I am looking at increasing energy levels, I'm always looking at increasing my energy levels and now that almost everything else is either taken out or put in, the only thing left to change is sugar, so that's it I will speak to the ice cream man and have him find me a sugar free ice cream that I will LOVE
Davina has done a few interviews on her sugar free diet, I still love her even though she didn't reply to my message ages ago. Here is one of her interviews http://www.dailymail.co.uk/home/you/article-2892387/Food-exclusive-Davina-s-5-Weeks-Sugar-Free.html
Tuesday, 22 May 2018
Have a tipple or a drink?
As I wrote last week I was tired, and have continued to be. I knew I had been over busying myself but I might also have been dehydrated so have been drinking more water, this of course means I need a wee every 10 minutes but it's helping me feel a fair bit less rubbish. Of course I had to have a read on the benefits of water and why it is actually good for me in all areas so here are a few things I've learned this week.
It's true there is more water to your body than anything else, 60% I feel sloshy. When you're dehydrated you feel tired, sluggish, heavy, headachy, your urine is strong and often stingy (nice thought eh?), the water intake stops this and the extra weeing is cleaning the toxins out, the less bright and strong your wee is the cleaner your insides are, good to know hahaha. Keeping up your water intake instead of a cuppa, usually a coffee (which is dehydrating itself) for me definately helps keep everything in check. I definately feel less tired, I also feel less tired, great for the dieters like me, I've started having a glass of water instead of a snack just to check am I really hungry or just greedy and bored?
I'm hoping keeping my water intake up is going to do my skin good too, I want to look 20 again hahahaha. Honestly I know that's not going to happen without a skin graft but every now and again, especially when I'm tired I do spot myself in the mirror and think woah that's sad, have another glass of water.
I have a few friends who are runners and I do my yoga, keeping your water intake up is good for the muscles and with not enough of it we definately feel more sluggish. Increase your water before, during and after your workout helps you workout better.
If you are dehydrated your brain finds it harder to work, it has less concentration. Drinking enough water helps with your concentration, mood, brain function, memory and cognition. Hmmmmmm these are what I need to know. I knew that one of my seizures was partly because I was dehydrated but I didn't realise it wasn't just a 'me' thing.
So keep drinking, keep eating foods with lots of fluid, like apples, cucumber and watermelon just to name a few.
The other side of things have been great. I have a meeting next week with the brain tumour research charity who are going to support me on my month long walk, I'm thrilled. I want it to get the exposure of the charity seen and heard more.
I've also finally got my neurology appointment for June. This makes me nervous because it brings it all back that I'm not 100% and probably won't be for a while. That said it'll be good to see things moving forwards. I am now 15 weeks since my last gran mal, that's the longest I've gone for which is amazing. I can definately do more. I am definately less tired and can concentrate and remember better. CBD? maybe. Healing? maybe. A mixture of the two with a good diet and plenty of water? Most likely.
It's true there is more water to your body than anything else, 60% I feel sloshy. When you're dehydrated you feel tired, sluggish, heavy, headachy, your urine is strong and often stingy (nice thought eh?), the water intake stops this and the extra weeing is cleaning the toxins out, the less bright and strong your wee is the cleaner your insides are, good to know hahaha. Keeping up your water intake instead of a cuppa, usually a coffee (which is dehydrating itself) for me definately helps keep everything in check. I definately feel less tired, I also feel less tired, great for the dieters like me, I've started having a glass of water instead of a snack just to check am I really hungry or just greedy and bored?
I'm hoping keeping my water intake up is going to do my skin good too, I want to look 20 again hahahaha. Honestly I know that's not going to happen without a skin graft but every now and again, especially when I'm tired I do spot myself in the mirror and think woah that's sad, have another glass of water.
I have a few friends who are runners and I do my yoga, keeping your water intake up is good for the muscles and with not enough of it we definately feel more sluggish. Increase your water before, during and after your workout helps you workout better.
If you are dehydrated your brain finds it harder to work, it has less concentration. Drinking enough water helps with your concentration, mood, brain function, memory and cognition. Hmmmmmm these are what I need to know. I knew that one of my seizures was partly because I was dehydrated but I didn't realise it wasn't just a 'me' thing.
So keep drinking, keep eating foods with lots of fluid, like apples, cucumber and watermelon just to name a few.
The other side of things have been great. I have a meeting next week with the brain tumour research charity who are going to support me on my month long walk, I'm thrilled. I want it to get the exposure of the charity seen and heard more.
I've also finally got my neurology appointment for June. This makes me nervous because it brings it all back that I'm not 100% and probably won't be for a while. That said it'll be good to see things moving forwards. I am now 15 weeks since my last gran mal, that's the longest I've gone for which is amazing. I can definately do more. I am definately less tired and can concentrate and remember better. CBD? maybe. Healing? maybe. A mixture of the two with a good diet and plenty of water? Most likely.
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