If I believed in the almighty I'd be asking myself if I'm making a HUGE mistake with starting this business malarkey or whether I should just stop now. It seems that every time I take a step forward something goes wrong and it's another step to get forward again. It was the scripts and I sorted that, slowly, very slowly but actually the scripts that I'm writing myself I like better than the ones I bought so that's OK. Then at the weekend my laptop died, literally died and took all my work with it, well took half of my work so here we go again aarrrgggghhhhhh and still counting on launching the website on 1st November but really is someone trying to tell me something???
It must be a moon rising or something with the weather because yesterday I cried in the street. I listened to 3 different conversations about money yesterday and they literally went from one mad extreme to one sad extreme and that's where I cried. On the bus to school there was a young Mum, she had her one year old(ish) in a childs buggy and got chatting to another young Mum about buggys, the younger of the two pointed out her buggy and said she's picked it up for £10 and it's the third one she's had, they break because she has to carry them up 12 flights of stairs to her flat, she was clean and tidy and so was her baby, she was so caring to her little one that it was a joy to watch her. Money is clearly tight for her but she seems to be doing a great job. Then at primary school in a pretty affluent area two Mums were chatting about holidays when one said that due to rising flight prices they won't be doing a Caribbean holiday next year, they'll be staying in Europe. Then at home I popped to the shop to see another homeless young guy sitting in the street, I overheard him saying to someone that he was hungry so as I picked up what I wanted I also picked up a sandwich from the reduced price shelf for him. When I went outside to give it to him he has been asked to move by the shop manager, I don't blame him, no business owner want a homeless person sitting possibly begging outside their front door. I gave the young guy the sandwich and was shocked to see him so clean looking and he had tears in his eyes while he asked me where he should go. He didn't want to go to a local church because the others there didn't accept him in either of their two groups, one a group of Eastern Europeans and the others a group of drugs and drinkers and he said he didn't fit into either of those groups. Having listened to the three different conversations was a real eye opener that the cost of living is so very different from different groups of society, some peoples lack of funds mean they have to change their holiday destinations, and others mind they have no food or shelter. It brought me to tears in the street. How as a society do we change this. What as a country can we do, we have so many people sleeping in the street, I've noticed the number growing so much recently yet buildings are going up and laying empty, is that right? Surely there is a heart beating in our government that knows something has to change? The flip side of this which prays on my mind a LOT is the welfare system, I now my thoughts on this are controversial when I say that we need to shake up the benefits system by getting those who are fit to work away from Netflix and working in the community, our streets need cleaning, old people and the disabled need help and we have thousands of people sitting in their front rooms watching TV and living off benefits. Other European countries don't have our welfares and if you don't work and pay into the system there is no money for you to claim out of it. Surely these people on welfare should be out doing something in the community to earn the welfare money that the state pays them? I may be wrong but I have had this conversation so many times and so many people agree with me. Things need to change.
My other thoughts this last few weeks have been is about the plastic and littler that we are drowning the world with, so heres the thing. We have islands of rubbish and plastic destroying our seas, we have areas all over the world that have mountains of rubbish and plastic that has nowhere to go so it's just building and building. Then we are having storms, volcanoes and severe weather changes and thousands of people are dying every week. The world is fighting back the race that is causing it damage.
Woah I'm deep and meaningful this week, it must be the moon or the weather
