It's been a majorly busy week with the children on school holidays, a wedding, preparing for work and my fresh start, a hen night, a wedding, an appointment to set up my website (woohoo expensive but exciting), and appointment with the brain tumour lady to charity fundraise and trying to do hypnosis recordings without the dog snoring in the background!
I am OK, taking time to rest and relax in between the growing list of things to do and so far I think I'm doing pretty good.
Lets start at the beginning, the wedding was amazing, I had the loveliest time, I didn't look ill, in fact I looked great in my beautiful dress and high heels and even a glass of prosecco, I caught the brides bouquet and I danced and laughed. All in all a wonderful wedding.
The website people are fabulous and are going to be able to get everything I want to start my healing business of to an incredible start. Like I said before exciting and expensive :)
The appointment with the lady from Brain Tumour research was incredible, so much so I cried after, I never used to cry it's annoying. I am going to start my walk this weekend, can't believe it's a year since all this started. She is going to support me and provide me with everything I need to promote the charity. I have a couple of t-shirts that I'll be wearing a lot to show who I am going to be supporting. I've been invited to visit the research lab and see what work is happening, I've been asked to be interviewed, I'm not sure about that yet and I will be introduced to various people. I've been described as an inspiration, I honestly don't know how true that is, I think more tenacious. I'm going to go putting my posters up in as many places as I can to get money given to the just giving page. I am now passionate about this charity.
And now I'm back on the subject of food, I got into a conversation with someone last week who told me that there is a proven link between tumours growing and sugar, as an ice cream fan this breaks my heart, unless my amazing ice cream man can make me a sugar free ice cream. So I'm back to the reading to see if and what the link is and should I really consider cutting sugar out of my diet. The first thing I read was sugar awakens cancer cells, so far that makes me miserable. I'll be honest there is a LOT to read on the link of sugar to cancer and tumours and it's ALL bad. So I am genuinely thinking of cutting out my sugar intake, which is a lot more limited than it used to be thanks to slimming world, but as many ladies I do get 'times' that I literally crave sugar and nothing else can fill the gap. I know that the chocolate and sugar is just not good for me but the thought it could be a contributing factor to my uninvited head guest growing back into his bungalow is terrifying. So Davina McCall is coming to my rescue again with her 5 weeks to sugar free. The thing that I know I will struggle with most is how to replace the sweet stuff, I understand that like any other addiction it'll take a couple of weeks to get the sugar out of my system and then I won't get the cravings. So once the alpen lights have gone they won't be replaced. I think tomorrow morning I will be doing a sugar addiction recording and putting myself on a 4 week course of it. I love that I can do this for myself and feel good for it. I am looking forward to seeing a brighter skin and as always I am looking at increasing energy levels, I'm always looking at increasing my energy levels and now that almost everything else is either taken out or put in, the only thing left to change is sugar, so that's it I will speak to the ice cream man and have him find me a sugar free ice cream that I will LOVE
Davina has done a few interviews on her sugar free diet, I still love her even though she didn't reply to my message ages ago. Here is one of her interviews http://www.dailymail.co.uk/home/you/article-2892387/Food-exclusive-Davina-s-5-Weeks-Sugar-Free.html
Wednesday, 30 May 2018
Tuesday, 22 May 2018
Have a tipple or a drink?
As I wrote last week I was tired, and have continued to be. I knew I had been over busying myself but I might also have been dehydrated so have been drinking more water, this of course means I need a wee every 10 minutes but it's helping me feel a fair bit less rubbish. Of course I had to have a read on the benefits of water and why it is actually good for me in all areas so here are a few things I've learned this week.
It's true there is more water to your body than anything else, 60% I feel sloshy. When you're dehydrated you feel tired, sluggish, heavy, headachy, your urine is strong and often stingy (nice thought eh?), the water intake stops this and the extra weeing is cleaning the toxins out, the less bright and strong your wee is the cleaner your insides are, good to know hahaha. Keeping up your water intake instead of a cuppa, usually a coffee (which is dehydrating itself) for me definately helps keep everything in check. I definately feel less tired, I also feel less tired, great for the dieters like me, I've started having a glass of water instead of a snack just to check am I really hungry or just greedy and bored?
I'm hoping keeping my water intake up is going to do my skin good too, I want to look 20 again hahahaha. Honestly I know that's not going to happen without a skin graft but every now and again, especially when I'm tired I do spot myself in the mirror and think woah that's sad, have another glass of water.
I have a few friends who are runners and I do my yoga, keeping your water intake up is good for the muscles and with not enough of it we definately feel more sluggish. Increase your water before, during and after your workout helps you workout better.
If you are dehydrated your brain finds it harder to work, it has less concentration. Drinking enough water helps with your concentration, mood, brain function, memory and cognition. Hmmmmmm these are what I need to know. I knew that one of my seizures was partly because I was dehydrated but I didn't realise it wasn't just a 'me' thing.
So keep drinking, keep eating foods with lots of fluid, like apples, cucumber and watermelon just to name a few.
The other side of things have been great. I have a meeting next week with the brain tumour research charity who are going to support me on my month long walk, I'm thrilled. I want it to get the exposure of the charity seen and heard more.
I've also finally got my neurology appointment for June. This makes me nervous because it brings it all back that I'm not 100% and probably won't be for a while. That said it'll be good to see things moving forwards. I am now 15 weeks since my last gran mal, that's the longest I've gone for which is amazing. I can definately do more. I am definately less tired and can concentrate and remember better. CBD? maybe. Healing? maybe. A mixture of the two with a good diet and plenty of water? Most likely.
It's true there is more water to your body than anything else, 60% I feel sloshy. When you're dehydrated you feel tired, sluggish, heavy, headachy, your urine is strong and often stingy (nice thought eh?), the water intake stops this and the extra weeing is cleaning the toxins out, the less bright and strong your wee is the cleaner your insides are, good to know hahaha. Keeping up your water intake instead of a cuppa, usually a coffee (which is dehydrating itself) for me definately helps keep everything in check. I definately feel less tired, I also feel less tired, great for the dieters like me, I've started having a glass of water instead of a snack just to check am I really hungry or just greedy and bored?
I'm hoping keeping my water intake up is going to do my skin good too, I want to look 20 again hahahaha. Honestly I know that's not going to happen without a skin graft but every now and again, especially when I'm tired I do spot myself in the mirror and think woah that's sad, have another glass of water.
I have a few friends who are runners and I do my yoga, keeping your water intake up is good for the muscles and with not enough of it we definately feel more sluggish. Increase your water before, during and after your workout helps you workout better.
If you are dehydrated your brain finds it harder to work, it has less concentration. Drinking enough water helps with your concentration, mood, brain function, memory and cognition. Hmmmmmm these are what I need to know. I knew that one of my seizures was partly because I was dehydrated but I didn't realise it wasn't just a 'me' thing.
So keep drinking, keep eating foods with lots of fluid, like apples, cucumber and watermelon just to name a few.
The other side of things have been great. I have a meeting next week with the brain tumour research charity who are going to support me on my month long walk, I'm thrilled. I want it to get the exposure of the charity seen and heard more.
I've also finally got my neurology appointment for June. This makes me nervous because it brings it all back that I'm not 100% and probably won't be for a while. That said it'll be good to see things moving forwards. I am now 15 weeks since my last gran mal, that's the longest I've gone for which is amazing. I can definately do more. I am definately less tired and can concentrate and remember better. CBD? maybe. Healing? maybe. A mixture of the two with a good diet and plenty of water? Most likely.
Wednesday, 16 May 2018
Remember to take a break, read a book and have a cuppa
It's very easy to see things going so well that you take on more stuff and try to get back to the person you were before. It doesn't take long for the fatigue to kick back in but it does take longer for you to realise that you're overdoing it.
In the last few weeks I have overdone it, making things at the sewing machine for my daughters and their new homes. Making stuff for a friend and her charity work. Trying to build a website and start a new business (failing miserably), sticking to my healthy eating (failed at that pretty miserably too), walking the dog, starting a litter cleaning campaign because my local park which should be beautiful looks like a dustbin and on and on and on the list goes. This week it's hit me that I need to stop, slow down, read a book, have a cuppa, watch rubbish on TV and just take a break.
Things are moving ahead fast with jobs in the future pipeline and stuff which is amazing but really maybe I'm not as ready as I think I am.
That said, my weight loss has reached it's target woohoo, thanks slimming world. It looks like I'm moving home at the end of the year and that comes with a new job again woohoo. The local council and police seem to be bored of my rantings and have arranged to meet me tomorrow for a 'chat', I will try not to rant, it gives me a headache, maybe I will pull the brain tumour bomb tho hahahahaha.
The fabulous computer I bought is turning out to be hard work too, I have no idea how to use it so I've given up the ghost and thanks to PPI I have employed someone to build my website, thanks Arnie for making me look into it :)
So my note to self this week is slow down, you're not quite ready to live at 100 miles an hour yet and you really don't have to, take my own medicine and rest and chill out time.
On this note I'm signing off to relax with homemade beetroot and chilli crisps with homemade hummus. Maybe a glass of wine, do I dare???
In the last few weeks I have overdone it, making things at the sewing machine for my daughters and their new homes. Making stuff for a friend and her charity work. Trying to build a website and start a new business (failing miserably), sticking to my healthy eating (failed at that pretty miserably too), walking the dog, starting a litter cleaning campaign because my local park which should be beautiful looks like a dustbin and on and on and on the list goes. This week it's hit me that I need to stop, slow down, read a book, have a cuppa, watch rubbish on TV and just take a break.
Things are moving ahead fast with jobs in the future pipeline and stuff which is amazing but really maybe I'm not as ready as I think I am.
That said, my weight loss has reached it's target woohoo, thanks slimming world. It looks like I'm moving home at the end of the year and that comes with a new job again woohoo. The local council and police seem to be bored of my rantings and have arranged to meet me tomorrow for a 'chat', I will try not to rant, it gives me a headache, maybe I will pull the brain tumour bomb tho hahahahaha.
The fabulous computer I bought is turning out to be hard work too, I have no idea how to use it so I've given up the ghost and thanks to PPI I have employed someone to build my website, thanks Arnie for making me look into it :)
So my note to self this week is slow down, you're not quite ready to live at 100 miles an hour yet and you really don't have to, take my own medicine and rest and chill out time.
On this note I'm signing off to relax with homemade beetroot and chilli crisps with homemade hummus. Maybe a glass of wine, do I dare???
Wednesday, 9 May 2018
A brain box, a dickhead and the light is getting brighter
I got a brain box this week from brain trust, it's full of brilliant information, a fantastic book and a packet of tea bags. It seems like a lovely gift that I could have done with months ago, the things you learn as time goes on. Thankyou though to the brain trust for this fabulous gift. I also saw today that my local bus company are supporting brain tumour research, it was the weirdest surprise to see posters all over the bus. The other passengers must have thought (again) what a lunatic I was taking photos of all of the posters, which are now on my facebook to raise more and more money for brain tumour research, it's startling to know that only 1% of money raised goes towards brain tumour research which also kills more than any other cancer to children and adults under 40. Startling and sad to me anyway. I want to do something to raise money for this so I am looking at a sponsored walk by myself, 150 miles in a month. Hmmmm that seems more than doable :)
I've had yet another PIP assessment this week, they apparently don't have enough information, I think it's more likely that the lady who came was too positive towards me and my claim, so I had the huge list again for my brother, every time we have to do this it bring me to tears as a reminder of how my life has changed and what I have to do every day to protect myself. On that note though I am proud of how far I have come and what I have to look forward to, I just don't wanted to be reminded every damn week!!!
So the battle starts again, I feel stronger and more in a position to take on the establishment that caused me so much distress at the beginning of this bloody PIP business. We finally got the reason why I had to have another assessment. The second assessment was such a huge difference to the first that they had to check it. I explained to the lady who did the third one that the reason of the difference was because the first assessment was by a horrible man who brought me to tears and a seizure and completely lied on his whole assessment. So where I had not accepted it but shelved the companies standard apology I am now ready to go to war. That made me miserable and frightened for a lot longer than I needed to be. So let the battle commence. My MP asked me what conclusion I wanted to see, obviously hung, drawn and quartered isn't really an option in the western world anymore, what about bringing back the witch drowning? or maybe even beheading????? No then a proper apology, all of his assessments to be evaluated and a full employment procedure, let the bastard know what it feels like to be thought of as I liar. Aaahhhhhhhh I feel better now and breathe :)
My final news for this week is that my light has been switched on and is beautifully bright. Not only am I starting up my hypnosis and meditation website and soon to start classes. I have been offered a job with a new apartment included. I am going back to the tourist industry, which I know, love and am really good at. It's staying in my home town, in a fabulous seaside location with a fabulous apartment. I will be able to do both businesses side by side. They say everything happens for a reason and it seems my tumours reason was to put me in a new direction, Amos has caused me hell but he has also taught me that life really is too short, quite often so are memories so I am making as many as I can. Dump the idiots who drag you down and stick to the people that lift you up, make you feel great, make you laugh. He gave me the time to study things I've wanted to do for years and complete them. Amos (Hmmmmm I can't believe I'm actually talking to my dead brain tumour!), thankyou for making me realise all these things, you are not invited back but thankyou all the same.
In all honesty, if you're reading this and fancy giving some meditation or hypnosis a try, message me and I will happily send you a free recording of what you would like.
Have a great week
I've had yet another PIP assessment this week, they apparently don't have enough information, I think it's more likely that the lady who came was too positive towards me and my claim, so I had the huge list again for my brother, every time we have to do this it bring me to tears as a reminder of how my life has changed and what I have to do every day to protect myself. On that note though I am proud of how far I have come and what I have to look forward to, I just don't wanted to be reminded every damn week!!!
So the battle starts again, I feel stronger and more in a position to take on the establishment that caused me so much distress at the beginning of this bloody PIP business. We finally got the reason why I had to have another assessment. The second assessment was such a huge difference to the first that they had to check it. I explained to the lady who did the third one that the reason of the difference was because the first assessment was by a horrible man who brought me to tears and a seizure and completely lied on his whole assessment. So where I had not accepted it but shelved the companies standard apology I am now ready to go to war. That made me miserable and frightened for a lot longer than I needed to be. So let the battle commence. My MP asked me what conclusion I wanted to see, obviously hung, drawn and quartered isn't really an option in the western world anymore, what about bringing back the witch drowning? or maybe even beheading????? No then a proper apology, all of his assessments to be evaluated and a full employment procedure, let the bastard know what it feels like to be thought of as I liar. Aaahhhhhhhh I feel better now and breathe :)
My final news for this week is that my light has been switched on and is beautifully bright. Not only am I starting up my hypnosis and meditation website and soon to start classes. I have been offered a job with a new apartment included. I am going back to the tourist industry, which I know, love and am really good at. It's staying in my home town, in a fabulous seaside location with a fabulous apartment. I will be able to do both businesses side by side. They say everything happens for a reason and it seems my tumours reason was to put me in a new direction, Amos has caused me hell but he has also taught me that life really is too short, quite often so are memories so I am making as many as I can. Dump the idiots who drag you down and stick to the people that lift you up, make you feel great, make you laugh. He gave me the time to study things I've wanted to do for years and complete them. Amos (Hmmmmm I can't believe I'm actually talking to my dead brain tumour!), thankyou for making me realise all these things, you are not invited back but thankyou all the same.
In all honesty, if you're reading this and fancy giving some meditation or hypnosis a try, message me and I will happily send you a free recording of what you would like.
Have a great week
Saturday, 5 May 2018
WTF???
OK so it's time to get working and getting a website built, I honestly haven't got a bloody clue what to do, I get started, think I know what I'm doing and then spend 3 days stuck, seriously WTF
The do to list
Build a website - I thought I knew how to do that
Link it to my blog (here) - Not a bloody clue how to do that
Get the shop (for meditations and hypnosis recording available onto) - Not sure how to do that
Record 300 hypnosis sessions........... - I know how to do that, thank goodness
Get the affiliates (the companies I want to advertise) to work with me - I don't know how to do that
Get the affiliates listed on the blog - No idea
Get payment methods added so my new customers can pay for stuff - hahahaha, I don't know how to do that either
I think I might need some help
On the flip side, my local bus company is supporting brain tumour research, completely stopped me in my tracks to have that bus stop for me when it was unusually 20 minutes late. It stopped me having a winge at the stressed driver, stressed because it was a really really busy bus. The other passengers must have thought I was bonkers (no change there then) when I was snapping photos of all the posters. I am now getting in contact with the bus company to try and organise a fund raising thing to work with them and raise some money for brain tumour research, It's heartbreaking to know that of all monies raised for cancer only 1% goes to brain tumour research. More children die from brain tumours than any other cancers, more adults under 40 die from brain tumours than any other cancers. What a miserable thought that we know all about the breast cancers and prostrate cancers, the lung cancers and just about all other cancers but not brain, I don't understand how this works and it makes me miserable to think about it so I am stopping now and getting back to doing the thing that I haven't got a bloody clue how to get started. If that doesn't addle my brain it's a sign that I'm definitely on the mend
The do to list
Build a website - I thought I knew how to do that
Link it to my blog (here) - Not a bloody clue how to do that
Get the shop (for meditations and hypnosis recording available onto) - Not sure how to do that
Record 300 hypnosis sessions........... - I know how to do that, thank goodness
Get the affiliates (the companies I want to advertise) to work with me - I don't know how to do that
Get the affiliates listed on the blog - No idea
Get payment methods added so my new customers can pay for stuff - hahahaha, I don't know how to do that either
I think I might need some help
On the flip side, my local bus company is supporting brain tumour research, completely stopped me in my tracks to have that bus stop for me when it was unusually 20 minutes late. It stopped me having a winge at the stressed driver, stressed because it was a really really busy bus. The other passengers must have thought I was bonkers (no change there then) when I was snapping photos of all the posters. I am now getting in contact with the bus company to try and organise a fund raising thing to work with them and raise some money for brain tumour research, It's heartbreaking to know that of all monies raised for cancer only 1% goes to brain tumour research. More children die from brain tumours than any other cancers, more adults under 40 die from brain tumours than any other cancers. What a miserable thought that we know all about the breast cancers and prostrate cancers, the lung cancers and just about all other cancers but not brain, I don't understand how this works and it makes me miserable to think about it so I am stopping now and getting back to doing the thing that I haven't got a bloody clue how to get started. If that doesn't addle my brain it's a sign that I'm definitely on the mend
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