As I wrote last week I was tired, and have continued to be. I knew I had been over busying myself but I might also have been dehydrated so have been drinking more water, this of course means I need a wee every 10 minutes but it's helping me feel a fair bit less rubbish. Of course I had to have a read on the benefits of water and why it is actually good for me in all areas so here are a few things I've learned this week.
It's true there is more water to your body than anything else, 60% I feel sloshy. When you're dehydrated you feel tired, sluggish, heavy, headachy, your urine is strong and often stingy (nice thought eh?), the water intake stops this and the extra weeing is cleaning the toxins out, the less bright and strong your wee is the cleaner your insides are, good to know hahaha. Keeping up your water intake instead of a cuppa, usually a coffee (which is dehydrating itself) for me definately helps keep everything in check. I definately feel less tired, I also feel less tired, great for the dieters like me, I've started having a glass of water instead of a snack just to check am I really hungry or just greedy and bored?
I'm hoping keeping my water intake up is going to do my skin good too, I want to look 20 again hahahaha. Honestly I know that's not going to happen without a skin graft but every now and again, especially when I'm tired I do spot myself in the mirror and think woah that's sad, have another glass of water.
I have a few friends who are runners and I do my yoga, keeping your water intake up is good for the muscles and with not enough of it we definately feel more sluggish. Increase your water before, during and after your workout helps you workout better.
If you are dehydrated your brain finds it harder to work, it has less concentration. Drinking enough water helps with your concentration, mood, brain function, memory and cognition. Hmmmmmm these are what I need to know. I knew that one of my seizures was partly because I was dehydrated but I didn't realise it wasn't just a 'me' thing.
So keep drinking, keep eating foods with lots of fluid, like apples, cucumber and watermelon just to name a few.
The other side of things have been great. I have a meeting next week with the brain tumour research charity who are going to support me on my month long walk, I'm thrilled. I want it to get the exposure of the charity seen and heard more.
I've also finally got my neurology appointment for June. This makes me nervous because it brings it all back that I'm not 100% and probably won't be for a while. That said it'll be good to see things moving forwards. I am now 15 weeks since my last gran mal, that's the longest I've gone for which is amazing. I can definately do more. I am definately less tired and can concentrate and remember better. CBD? maybe. Healing? maybe. A mixture of the two with a good diet and plenty of water? Most likely.
Tuesday, 22 May 2018
Wednesday, 16 May 2018
Remember to take a break, read a book and have a cuppa
It's very easy to see things going so well that you take on more stuff and try to get back to the person you were before. It doesn't take long for the fatigue to kick back in but it does take longer for you to realise that you're overdoing it.
In the last few weeks I have overdone it, making things at the sewing machine for my daughters and their new homes. Making stuff for a friend and her charity work. Trying to build a website and start a new business (failing miserably), sticking to my healthy eating (failed at that pretty miserably too), walking the dog, starting a litter cleaning campaign because my local park which should be beautiful looks like a dustbin and on and on and on the list goes. This week it's hit me that I need to stop, slow down, read a book, have a cuppa, watch rubbish on TV and just take a break.
Things are moving ahead fast with jobs in the future pipeline and stuff which is amazing but really maybe I'm not as ready as I think I am.
That said, my weight loss has reached it's target woohoo, thanks slimming world. It looks like I'm moving home at the end of the year and that comes with a new job again woohoo. The local council and police seem to be bored of my rantings and have arranged to meet me tomorrow for a 'chat', I will try not to rant, it gives me a headache, maybe I will pull the brain tumour bomb tho hahahahaha.
The fabulous computer I bought is turning out to be hard work too, I have no idea how to use it so I've given up the ghost and thanks to PPI I have employed someone to build my website, thanks Arnie for making me look into it :)
So my note to self this week is slow down, you're not quite ready to live at 100 miles an hour yet and you really don't have to, take my own medicine and rest and chill out time.
On this note I'm signing off to relax with homemade beetroot and chilli crisps with homemade hummus. Maybe a glass of wine, do I dare???
In the last few weeks I have overdone it, making things at the sewing machine for my daughters and their new homes. Making stuff for a friend and her charity work. Trying to build a website and start a new business (failing miserably), sticking to my healthy eating (failed at that pretty miserably too), walking the dog, starting a litter cleaning campaign because my local park which should be beautiful looks like a dustbin and on and on and on the list goes. This week it's hit me that I need to stop, slow down, read a book, have a cuppa, watch rubbish on TV and just take a break.
Things are moving ahead fast with jobs in the future pipeline and stuff which is amazing but really maybe I'm not as ready as I think I am.
That said, my weight loss has reached it's target woohoo, thanks slimming world. It looks like I'm moving home at the end of the year and that comes with a new job again woohoo. The local council and police seem to be bored of my rantings and have arranged to meet me tomorrow for a 'chat', I will try not to rant, it gives me a headache, maybe I will pull the brain tumour bomb tho hahahahaha.
The fabulous computer I bought is turning out to be hard work too, I have no idea how to use it so I've given up the ghost and thanks to PPI I have employed someone to build my website, thanks Arnie for making me look into it :)
So my note to self this week is slow down, you're not quite ready to live at 100 miles an hour yet and you really don't have to, take my own medicine and rest and chill out time.
On this note I'm signing off to relax with homemade beetroot and chilli crisps with homemade hummus. Maybe a glass of wine, do I dare???
Wednesday, 9 May 2018
A brain box, a dickhead and the light is getting brighter
I got a brain box this week from brain trust, it's full of brilliant information, a fantastic book and a packet of tea bags. It seems like a lovely gift that I could have done with months ago, the things you learn as time goes on. Thankyou though to the brain trust for this fabulous gift. I also saw today that my local bus company are supporting brain tumour research, it was the weirdest surprise to see posters all over the bus. The other passengers must have thought (again) what a lunatic I was taking photos of all of the posters, which are now on my facebook to raise more and more money for brain tumour research, it's startling to know that only 1% of money raised goes towards brain tumour research which also kills more than any other cancer to children and adults under 40. Startling and sad to me anyway. I want to do something to raise money for this so I am looking at a sponsored walk by myself, 150 miles in a month. Hmmmm that seems more than doable :)
I've had yet another PIP assessment this week, they apparently don't have enough information, I think it's more likely that the lady who came was too positive towards me and my claim, so I had the huge list again for my brother, every time we have to do this it bring me to tears as a reminder of how my life has changed and what I have to do every day to protect myself. On that note though I am proud of how far I have come and what I have to look forward to, I just don't wanted to be reminded every damn week!!!
So the battle starts again, I feel stronger and more in a position to take on the establishment that caused me so much distress at the beginning of this bloody PIP business. We finally got the reason why I had to have another assessment. The second assessment was such a huge difference to the first that they had to check it. I explained to the lady who did the third one that the reason of the difference was because the first assessment was by a horrible man who brought me to tears and a seizure and completely lied on his whole assessment. So where I had not accepted it but shelved the companies standard apology I am now ready to go to war. That made me miserable and frightened for a lot longer than I needed to be. So let the battle commence. My MP asked me what conclusion I wanted to see, obviously hung, drawn and quartered isn't really an option in the western world anymore, what about bringing back the witch drowning? or maybe even beheading????? No then a proper apology, all of his assessments to be evaluated and a full employment procedure, let the bastard know what it feels like to be thought of as I liar. Aaahhhhhhhh I feel better now and breathe :)
My final news for this week is that my light has been switched on and is beautifully bright. Not only am I starting up my hypnosis and meditation website and soon to start classes. I have been offered a job with a new apartment included. I am going back to the tourist industry, which I know, love and am really good at. It's staying in my home town, in a fabulous seaside location with a fabulous apartment. I will be able to do both businesses side by side. They say everything happens for a reason and it seems my tumours reason was to put me in a new direction, Amos has caused me hell but he has also taught me that life really is too short, quite often so are memories so I am making as many as I can. Dump the idiots who drag you down and stick to the people that lift you up, make you feel great, make you laugh. He gave me the time to study things I've wanted to do for years and complete them. Amos (Hmmmmm I can't believe I'm actually talking to my dead brain tumour!), thankyou for making me realise all these things, you are not invited back but thankyou all the same.
In all honesty, if you're reading this and fancy giving some meditation or hypnosis a try, message me and I will happily send you a free recording of what you would like.
Have a great week
I've had yet another PIP assessment this week, they apparently don't have enough information, I think it's more likely that the lady who came was too positive towards me and my claim, so I had the huge list again for my brother, every time we have to do this it bring me to tears as a reminder of how my life has changed and what I have to do every day to protect myself. On that note though I am proud of how far I have come and what I have to look forward to, I just don't wanted to be reminded every damn week!!!
So the battle starts again, I feel stronger and more in a position to take on the establishment that caused me so much distress at the beginning of this bloody PIP business. We finally got the reason why I had to have another assessment. The second assessment was such a huge difference to the first that they had to check it. I explained to the lady who did the third one that the reason of the difference was because the first assessment was by a horrible man who brought me to tears and a seizure and completely lied on his whole assessment. So where I had not accepted it but shelved the companies standard apology I am now ready to go to war. That made me miserable and frightened for a lot longer than I needed to be. So let the battle commence. My MP asked me what conclusion I wanted to see, obviously hung, drawn and quartered isn't really an option in the western world anymore, what about bringing back the witch drowning? or maybe even beheading????? No then a proper apology, all of his assessments to be evaluated and a full employment procedure, let the bastard know what it feels like to be thought of as I liar. Aaahhhhhhhh I feel better now and breathe :)
My final news for this week is that my light has been switched on and is beautifully bright. Not only am I starting up my hypnosis and meditation website and soon to start classes. I have been offered a job with a new apartment included. I am going back to the tourist industry, which I know, love and am really good at. It's staying in my home town, in a fabulous seaside location with a fabulous apartment. I will be able to do both businesses side by side. They say everything happens for a reason and it seems my tumours reason was to put me in a new direction, Amos has caused me hell but he has also taught me that life really is too short, quite often so are memories so I am making as many as I can. Dump the idiots who drag you down and stick to the people that lift you up, make you feel great, make you laugh. He gave me the time to study things I've wanted to do for years and complete them. Amos (Hmmmmm I can't believe I'm actually talking to my dead brain tumour!), thankyou for making me realise all these things, you are not invited back but thankyou all the same.
In all honesty, if you're reading this and fancy giving some meditation or hypnosis a try, message me and I will happily send you a free recording of what you would like.
Have a great week
Saturday, 5 May 2018
WTF???
OK so it's time to get working and getting a website built, I honestly haven't got a bloody clue what to do, I get started, think I know what I'm doing and then spend 3 days stuck, seriously WTF
The do to list
Build a website - I thought I knew how to do that
Link it to my blog (here) - Not a bloody clue how to do that
Get the shop (for meditations and hypnosis recording available onto) - Not sure how to do that
Record 300 hypnosis sessions........... - I know how to do that, thank goodness
Get the affiliates (the companies I want to advertise) to work with me - I don't know how to do that
Get the affiliates listed on the blog - No idea
Get payment methods added so my new customers can pay for stuff - hahahaha, I don't know how to do that either
I think I might need some help
On the flip side, my local bus company is supporting brain tumour research, completely stopped me in my tracks to have that bus stop for me when it was unusually 20 minutes late. It stopped me having a winge at the stressed driver, stressed because it was a really really busy bus. The other passengers must have thought I was bonkers (no change there then) when I was snapping photos of all the posters. I am now getting in contact with the bus company to try and organise a fund raising thing to work with them and raise some money for brain tumour research, It's heartbreaking to know that of all monies raised for cancer only 1% goes to brain tumour research. More children die from brain tumours than any other cancers, more adults under 40 die from brain tumours than any other cancers. What a miserable thought that we know all about the breast cancers and prostrate cancers, the lung cancers and just about all other cancers but not brain, I don't understand how this works and it makes me miserable to think about it so I am stopping now and getting back to doing the thing that I haven't got a bloody clue how to get started. If that doesn't addle my brain it's a sign that I'm definitely on the mend
The do to list
Build a website - I thought I knew how to do that
Link it to my blog (here) - Not a bloody clue how to do that
Get the shop (for meditations and hypnosis recording available onto) - Not sure how to do that
Record 300 hypnosis sessions........... - I know how to do that, thank goodness
Get the affiliates (the companies I want to advertise) to work with me - I don't know how to do that
Get the affiliates listed on the blog - No idea
Get payment methods added so my new customers can pay for stuff - hahahaha, I don't know how to do that either
I think I might need some help
On the flip side, my local bus company is supporting brain tumour research, completely stopped me in my tracks to have that bus stop for me when it was unusually 20 minutes late. It stopped me having a winge at the stressed driver, stressed because it was a really really busy bus. The other passengers must have thought I was bonkers (no change there then) when I was snapping photos of all the posters. I am now getting in contact with the bus company to try and organise a fund raising thing to work with them and raise some money for brain tumour research, It's heartbreaking to know that of all monies raised for cancer only 1% goes to brain tumour research. More children die from brain tumours than any other cancers, more adults under 40 die from brain tumours than any other cancers. What a miserable thought that we know all about the breast cancers and prostrate cancers, the lung cancers and just about all other cancers but not brain, I don't understand how this works and it makes me miserable to think about it so I am stopping now and getting back to doing the thing that I haven't got a bloody clue how to get started. If that doesn't addle my brain it's a sign that I'm definitely on the mend
Saturday, 28 April 2018
OMG I've actually done it
Omg I've done it
Hi,
Many thanks for sending your exam papers and recording.
We have now carefully assessed these and are happy to congratulate you on gaining your Diploma in Hypnotherapy through Hypnotic World.
Your diploma and membership certificate to the PHPA will be posted to you next week.
We listened to your audio recording and this was very nice; your tonal delivery and pacing were good and you left appropriate pauses where necessary. I'm sure your clients will enjoy listening to you.
This was part of the email I got this week and I am ecstatic. 9 months starts here. In 9 months I am now a qualified meditation instructor, a qualified natural therapist and now a fully qualified hypnotherapist. I literally can't believe how much I've achieved in what has been some of the shittiest and most frightening 9 months of my life EVER, but I've done it.
Now the work starts, my list is long and hilarious, I'm not really sure where to start. I need to get my website built and up and running, record my free to download meditation sessions and my purchasable hypnosis sessions. Get my website linked to this blog, I'd like to say my amazing blog because I really do love it so much, I love the writing time and my readers comments. I want to link all these to my favourite companies that I mention on here too, I really don't know how to do that and get paid for it! Then there's the advertising, I don't really know how to do that either. Then I want to start doing meditation classes, free to start with for hospital staff, they work so very hard and I'd love to give them something back to teach them to relax and be calm and I have to think of my business name!!!! Not sure what that's going to be yet.
So my friend was right when she said the miracle 9 month mark, this is the start to my new normal and I am excited, I didn't think I'd be saying that anytime soon.
Hi,
Many thanks for sending your exam papers and recording.
We have now carefully assessed these and are happy to congratulate you on gaining your Diploma in Hypnotherapy through Hypnotic World.
Your diploma and membership certificate to the PHPA will be posted to you next week.
We listened to your audio recording and this was very nice; your tonal delivery and pacing were good and you left appropriate pauses where necessary. I'm sure your clients will enjoy listening to you.
This was part of the email I got this week and I am ecstatic. 9 months starts here. In 9 months I am now a qualified meditation instructor, a qualified natural therapist and now a fully qualified hypnotherapist. I literally can't believe how much I've achieved in what has been some of the shittiest and most frightening 9 months of my life EVER, but I've done it.
Now the work starts, my list is long and hilarious, I'm not really sure where to start. I need to get my website built and up and running, record my free to download meditation sessions and my purchasable hypnosis sessions. Get my website linked to this blog, I'd like to say my amazing blog because I really do love it so much, I love the writing time and my readers comments. I want to link all these to my favourite companies that I mention on here too, I really don't know how to do that and get paid for it! Then there's the advertising, I don't really know how to do that either. Then I want to start doing meditation classes, free to start with for hospital staff, they work so very hard and I'd love to give them something back to teach them to relax and be calm and I have to think of my business name!!!! Not sure what that's going to be yet.
So my friend was right when she said the miracle 9 month mark, this is the start to my new normal and I am excited, I didn't think I'd be saying that anytime soon.
Monday, 23 April 2018
9 months and a new dog?!
I've just realised I'm now at the magical 9 months, this is the 9 months where aparently things magically start to change for the best and better. Fingers crossed
I've got a dog! My daughters thought I needed some company and a reason to get out, to be honest I don't need a reason to get out and I am very happy with the company I have but I have gone along with them and have welcomed 7 year old Luna into my tiny home. She is very sweet and so far is settling in nicely, we have gone out for walks (which I did anyway) and met some of the neighbours and their pets which was nice. My step count has gone up massively from my daily 10,000 to about average 18,000.
I'm still taking my CBD oil and honestly am feeling a million times better, I don't know if it's the healing or the vitamin c or the cbd but whichever it is I am happy. I had another look at the health benefits of turmeric, I make a latte with my turmeric and coconut oil which I do most days and I do actually enjoy it as my afternoon cuppa. On my reading I've come up on some reading on the epilepsy foundation and have come up with some research that I didn't expect to find that there is a possibility that turmeric and it's curcumin can help with seizures, now that is truly incredible, below are the links for a read. I am making mine in my nutribullet, half a teaspoon of Lucy Bee turmeric (because it has ginger and black pepper in it and I know it's 100% natural) and I have this with boiling water and a teaspoon of coconut oil, nutribullet it for 8 seconds and it's a latte, sometimes I add cinnamon to it, sometimes I don't just for a bit of sweetness.
https://www.epilepsy.com/connect/forums/medication-issues/curcumin-tumeric-and-seizure-control
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/20840851
I am now off the happy pills, I don't miss them because I'm guessing they've been replaced with the vitamin b and that's good news for me. That's 2 lots of chemicals, only got the keppra now and that's going to take a while longer depending on whether or not I am going to have any seizures. Speaking of which, I am now longer than my diary from last week on my gran mals, fingers crossed this is going to last longer and longer. I had to speak to my GP this week and she wanted to take a blood test to check out my vitamin b, I had to ask her what her thoughts on regarding medicinal cannabis, her response was as expected that she could not have a view, of course I had to tell her I am taking it because it will probably come up in my blood test that is a useless process because I'm already taking vitamin b and it's already helping, I don't feel like burdening the NHS more than it needs to be burdened.
I am aiming to live as much a chemical free life as possible, I feel I am becoming the best that I can as an environmentalist, I don't use plastic bags I have got rid of most of my chemical cleaning products and am in the process of replacing them with my fabulous new steam cleaner (yes the TV shopping is still continuing), I literally love my steam cleaner, my bathroom is a sparkling gleam with not a chemical cleaner in sight.
I am back to studying this week and this time I am learning about mindfulness, I've not looked at this before so I am going to a class tomorrow, a nice quiet class with a nice quiet friend to see how this can be used to further my future career. I am also looking at the future of this blog. It's a tough thing to learn about how to increase my readership but I will continue. It was recommended the other day by a reader to turn this into a book. I don't feel it's ready for that yet, I want to be able to talk about the keppra some more.
I am another week free of seizures and dizzy spells, up on my workouts and all in all feeling pretty good, even though I had to tell my grand daughter twice last week to stop talking because she was wearing my brain out. Bless her, we rested watching grease the movie.
At this point dear reader I am going to sign off and get some work done with my studying, I've been soooooo lazy the past few weeks it's now time to pull it together and get some reading time in.
Have a great week and healthy, happy wishes to you all :)
I've got a dog! My daughters thought I needed some company and a reason to get out, to be honest I don't need a reason to get out and I am very happy with the company I have but I have gone along with them and have welcomed 7 year old Luna into my tiny home. She is very sweet and so far is settling in nicely, we have gone out for walks (which I did anyway) and met some of the neighbours and their pets which was nice. My step count has gone up massively from my daily 10,000 to about average 18,000.
I'm still taking my CBD oil and honestly am feeling a million times better, I don't know if it's the healing or the vitamin c or the cbd but whichever it is I am happy. I had another look at the health benefits of turmeric, I make a latte with my turmeric and coconut oil which I do most days and I do actually enjoy it as my afternoon cuppa. On my reading I've come up on some reading on the epilepsy foundation and have come up with some research that I didn't expect to find that there is a possibility that turmeric and it's curcumin can help with seizures, now that is truly incredible, below are the links for a read. I am making mine in my nutribullet, half a teaspoon of Lucy Bee turmeric (because it has ginger and black pepper in it and I know it's 100% natural) and I have this with boiling water and a teaspoon of coconut oil, nutribullet it for 8 seconds and it's a latte, sometimes I add cinnamon to it, sometimes I don't just for a bit of sweetness.
https://www.epilepsy.com/connect/forums/medication-issues/curcumin-tumeric-and-seizure-control
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/20840851
I am now off the happy pills, I don't miss them because I'm guessing they've been replaced with the vitamin b and that's good news for me. That's 2 lots of chemicals, only got the keppra now and that's going to take a while longer depending on whether or not I am going to have any seizures. Speaking of which, I am now longer than my diary from last week on my gran mals, fingers crossed this is going to last longer and longer. I had to speak to my GP this week and she wanted to take a blood test to check out my vitamin b, I had to ask her what her thoughts on regarding medicinal cannabis, her response was as expected that she could not have a view, of course I had to tell her I am taking it because it will probably come up in my blood test that is a useless process because I'm already taking vitamin b and it's already helping, I don't feel like burdening the NHS more than it needs to be burdened.
I am aiming to live as much a chemical free life as possible, I feel I am becoming the best that I can as an environmentalist, I don't use plastic bags I have got rid of most of my chemical cleaning products and am in the process of replacing them with my fabulous new steam cleaner (yes the TV shopping is still continuing), I literally love my steam cleaner, my bathroom is a sparkling gleam with not a chemical cleaner in sight.
I am back to studying this week and this time I am learning about mindfulness, I've not looked at this before so I am going to a class tomorrow, a nice quiet class with a nice quiet friend to see how this can be used to further my future career. I am also looking at the future of this blog. It's a tough thing to learn about how to increase my readership but I will continue. It was recommended the other day by a reader to turn this into a book. I don't feel it's ready for that yet, I want to be able to talk about the keppra some more.
I am another week free of seizures and dizzy spells, up on my workouts and all in all feeling pretty good, even though I had to tell my grand daughter twice last week to stop talking because she was wearing my brain out. Bless her, we rested watching grease the movie.
At this point dear reader I am going to sign off and get some work done with my studying, I've been soooooo lazy the past few weeks it's now time to pull it together and get some reading time in.
Have a great week and healthy, happy wishes to you all :)
Wednesday, 18 April 2018
Hair, body and mind
My hair is growing thick, long, strong and curly. I have always had thin, straight hair so this is different. I do love my new hair growth but honestly right now I resemble my Dads hair, curly quiff!!!
I feel awake and alive and I'm loving it, still I know not to overdo things but really I'm genuinely feeling great, so much that it's time to think about holidays woohoo. I'm hoping to go and stay with friends in sunny Spain in August, a bit (or a lot) of sunshine, some pool and beach time and some natural brown legs and not the fake tan, although it has to be said the fake tan is doing me proud for now, thanks skinnytan :)
I have bought myself a present proskins leggins and a top, this stuff is meant to be brilliant for skin firming and anti cellulite. Now I am lucky that I don't have any cellulite, well not that I can see anyway but I do have the baggy arms which I hate and I would like to firm my belly (I know I know wouldn't we all) but this stuff has great reviews so when I was given a cash gift from a friend I thought it was a good opportunity to spend it on these really expensive leggins and a matching top. Supposedly wearing them for 8 hours a day will improve my skin complex and work towards toning my baggy areas. The weirdest of it is it doesn't need to be washed for 2 weeks, honestly I'm not sure how I feel about that. I felt bad enough when we had the snow and I wore the same pyjamas for 3 days!! But these come highly rated by QVC (yes I am still shopping from TV, I think I might have developed a bit of a problem) and a few very good looking sportspeople, so I will wear them constantly, yes I might never take them off, they are really comfy.
https://proskins.co/
Now for any gentlemen who may read this I want to apologise in advance for this next paragraph, skip ahead, honestly it's a womens thing! Since I had my youngest (now 27 year old) daughter I have had a monthly boob/breast issue! I had mastititis after she was born and have got it during my period ever since. As a result of this I have the depo injection every 3 months, it stops me getting a period and therefore stops my boobs swelling up massively painfully and feeling like very heavy bullets. I've read (honestly I have) about how hormones like the injection and other forms of contraception can be another cause towards our tumours, whether or not this is true I honestly don't know and I don't believe that anyone really does. But, I have decided that it's time to stop having the jab. I only realised this morning that I'm now two weeks overdue my injection, usually at this stage of lateness I would be struggling with my sore and swollen boobs but I'm not. They are still soft and normal (I'm so sorry you are having to read this, I am literally sharing my whole life). Now whether this is just a coincidence or it's the vitamin b or the cbd I have no idea, but it's (fingers crossed) one less chemical for my body to have inside it and that makes me very happy.
I also know that now I am feeling not so urgh all the time, definately thanks to the vitamin b and the cbd oil and cutting down the anti depressants, I want to get back to some fitness, I still can't do the gym because I still can't stand the noise so it's home working out that I'm on and I am doing a little more every week and loving it. Still being careful to modify so as not to knock myself out with a dizzy spell or seizure!!! Sooooo I'm on Beachbody Piyo, definately my favourite, I don't do the drench and other long workouts but the core and buns are perfect for me. I do Oxycise, this is brilliant breathing, great for a wake up if I've had lazy days. The firm fitness has been this week, slim in 30 is bloody hard so I really have had to modify everything but I love that I'm being able to do more and more.
I am determined to look bikini fabulous, well as bikini fabulous as a 40 something year old grandmother of 2 and brain tumour survivor can look. Actually that little lot makes me bloody amazing :)
My thoughts are clearer, I have been so good at forgetting the words I want to say or write, until the last few weeks I would just give up trying to remember the word but I have learned that if I stop, breathe and consider the word comes back to me. It's amazing. I wonder if I am going to be my old self again or even just a different version of myself. Either way I am happy, I have a great future to look forward to and things in the pipeline. Maybe I'll turn this blog into a book when I'm off the meds and the seizures stop (notice I'm now saying when and not if), what do you think?
So all of the positive stuff I've written and then this morning I looked in my diary and I am due a gran mal, I know I need to stop thinking about it and stop worrying about it but it's there gnawing away at the back of my head and I am scared and I am worried and what if all this good stuff I'm doing is for nothing? I also know that I am hitting the 9 month post surgery mark and this morning a friend (who has been through the similar experience as me so knows what she's talking about), this is apparently a magic marker that things start to go the right way. Note to self sit down, have a cuppa, read a good book and don't worry
I feel awake and alive and I'm loving it, still I know not to overdo things but really I'm genuinely feeling great, so much that it's time to think about holidays woohoo. I'm hoping to go and stay with friends in sunny Spain in August, a bit (or a lot) of sunshine, some pool and beach time and some natural brown legs and not the fake tan, although it has to be said the fake tan is doing me proud for now, thanks skinnytan :)
I have bought myself a present proskins leggins and a top, this stuff is meant to be brilliant for skin firming and anti cellulite. Now I am lucky that I don't have any cellulite, well not that I can see anyway but I do have the baggy arms which I hate and I would like to firm my belly (I know I know wouldn't we all) but this stuff has great reviews so when I was given a cash gift from a friend I thought it was a good opportunity to spend it on these really expensive leggins and a matching top. Supposedly wearing them for 8 hours a day will improve my skin complex and work towards toning my baggy areas. The weirdest of it is it doesn't need to be washed for 2 weeks, honestly I'm not sure how I feel about that. I felt bad enough when we had the snow and I wore the same pyjamas for 3 days!! But these come highly rated by QVC (yes I am still shopping from TV, I think I might have developed a bit of a problem) and a few very good looking sportspeople, so I will wear them constantly, yes I might never take them off, they are really comfy.
https://proskins.co/
Now for any gentlemen who may read this I want to apologise in advance for this next paragraph, skip ahead, honestly it's a womens thing! Since I had my youngest (now 27 year old) daughter I have had a monthly boob/breast issue! I had mastititis after she was born and have got it during my period ever since. As a result of this I have the depo injection every 3 months, it stops me getting a period and therefore stops my boobs swelling up massively painfully and feeling like very heavy bullets. I've read (honestly I have) about how hormones like the injection and other forms of contraception can be another cause towards our tumours, whether or not this is true I honestly don't know and I don't believe that anyone really does. But, I have decided that it's time to stop having the jab. I only realised this morning that I'm now two weeks overdue my injection, usually at this stage of lateness I would be struggling with my sore and swollen boobs but I'm not. They are still soft and normal (I'm so sorry you are having to read this, I am literally sharing my whole life). Now whether this is just a coincidence or it's the vitamin b or the cbd I have no idea, but it's (fingers crossed) one less chemical for my body to have inside it and that makes me very happy.
I also know that now I am feeling not so urgh all the time, definately thanks to the vitamin b and the cbd oil and cutting down the anti depressants, I want to get back to some fitness, I still can't do the gym because I still can't stand the noise so it's home working out that I'm on and I am doing a little more every week and loving it. Still being careful to modify so as not to knock myself out with a dizzy spell or seizure!!! Sooooo I'm on Beachbody Piyo, definately my favourite, I don't do the drench and other long workouts but the core and buns are perfect for me. I do Oxycise, this is brilliant breathing, great for a wake up if I've had lazy days. The firm fitness has been this week, slim in 30 is bloody hard so I really have had to modify everything but I love that I'm being able to do more and more.
I am determined to look bikini fabulous, well as bikini fabulous as a 40 something year old grandmother of 2 and brain tumour survivor can look. Actually that little lot makes me bloody amazing :)
My thoughts are clearer, I have been so good at forgetting the words I want to say or write, until the last few weeks I would just give up trying to remember the word but I have learned that if I stop, breathe and consider the word comes back to me. It's amazing. I wonder if I am going to be my old self again or even just a different version of myself. Either way I am happy, I have a great future to look forward to and things in the pipeline. Maybe I'll turn this blog into a book when I'm off the meds and the seizures stop (notice I'm now saying when and not if), what do you think?
So all of the positive stuff I've written and then this morning I looked in my diary and I am due a gran mal, I know I need to stop thinking about it and stop worrying about it but it's there gnawing away at the back of my head and I am scared and I am worried and what if all this good stuff I'm doing is for nothing? I also know that I am hitting the 9 month post surgery mark and this morning a friend (who has been through the similar experience as me so knows what she's talking about), this is apparently a magic marker that things start to go the right way. Note to self sit down, have a cuppa, read a good book and don't worry
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